Timing Is Everything

I believe that at least once or twice I have mentioned the things that spark my interest and engage my passion.  Writing is one, but I must say, I have taken a bit of a hiatus in recent months.  I guess there is an ending to the words that would pour from my heart.  I think a lot of it has to do with being withdrawn from social engagement.  I have gathered very little and mostly have kept to tending my own hearth and home.

Normally this would cause me a great deal of personal pain.  After so many years of butting against the system, I have decided to join rank and be satisfied and content with what is.  I believe I even made a post about that.  You can't make people change.  You shouldn't change who you are.  However, at some point there is a marriage of the two and you find you can deal.

I think I've lost a little, but very important piece of myself.  I think I should be more upset than I am.  It's okay to adjust. Because when I look in the review mirror all I see is sadness.  It's okay to blend into the surroundings and learn to be content with that. Because this is the place and time that I am raising my children. Already five years of their life has advanced within the walls of this home. Five years of a mere eighteen that they will be mine.

I often wish it were easier to exert influence. I wish it were easier for people to pick up the good around them. To see sunshine, joy, and pass the spark along. I wanted that to be my legacy. I wanted. In some circles perhaps it has been so. It just hasn't been enough to spark a change in mindset.

New opportunities are coming my way though,  and God has opened some doors for me in ministry.  I think it will give me a bit of spark and joy.  Y'all know by now how much I love to orchestrate, organize, and basically boss people around.  I'm getting the opportunity to host our not-so-small church picnic in the fall. Event planning is such a passion. It's a passion that I have not been able to partake in since Utah. Basically the two things I would love to do for money are writing and event planning.

Event planning is the equivalent of working like a dog so that others can show up, sit down, laugh/drink/eat, and leave you to work like a dog to leave no trace of said experience except a long term memory that has been filed away for a rainy day.  If I have done my job right, when you pull that memory out, you will smile.  And my joy will be complete.

It gives me goosebumps. And so. much.  satisfaction.

I think this will be a catalyst for many fulfilling things in my life. I'm so excited to be in a place where I have been entrusted to do something so big that I love.  It's been so very long.

If you are local, I hope you will come. But. You should know. When I host, there is zero time for me to visit.  But you can stand back and watch me in my element, knowing I have no greater joy than to serve you so that YOU can have the chance to build and enjoy community.

Life is full of waiting rooms. God's waiting room is overflowing and seemingly endless at times. When He begins to work and orchestrate, you will see how much He desires to give you good gifts. It is in His timing.

Timing is everything.

The last seven months have lined me up to fall perfectly into this place.

I'm so ready.